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face to fucking face

You say the truth will set us free...then set us free because my fingers are blistering from holding onto that final raggered string. x

1.2.3.4.5.6.

I am the one who dwells within
You think you can force me out?
I dare you...

New wave mannequins

Magazines form overseas, won't teach you how to feel
They trade in their hearts for indie rock charts to tell them what is real
The truth about conformity, is it bites without a sting
Trends come and go, but when your alone it doesn't mean a thing

soo Brian...

...It's time to let go now

dead and bloated

I am smelling like the rose that somebody gave me on my birthday deathbed
I am smelling like the rose that somebody gave me because I'm dead & bloated

Darling just don't put down your guns yet

If there really was a god here, he'd have raised a hand by now.

realise

The man inside the moon is watching you lie to me.

True freedom

"You think you're free? I'm free! You don't know what freedom is! I'm free. I can breathe. And you... will choke on your average fuckin' mediocre life! "

...Hollywood loses another young star

december sixteen two thousand and nine

That night was one of the most amazing and inspiring nights of my life. I finally witnessed the remarkable songwriting of fleetwood mac and the poetry of stevie nicks. Playing an amazing and highly entertaining set of all their classics while trying to out do each other musically just shook me emotionally and mentally to witness 4 people who have been through a lifetime of ups and downs to be still strutting their stuff in front of my very eyes.

To share it alongside my favourite little lady singing every word with me and going through every leap and bound of their emotional rollercoaster ride of songs meant alot, with my best mate drunk and entertaining amongst the crowd as well haha. Thankyou for a special night Mick, John, Lindsay and Stevie, you left us breathless for many hours after (even so I couldn't party yet drive around blaring youtube vids and singing our arses off).

It was nice to wake up the next morning with the biggest smile on my face.

x



"Oh mirror in the sky
What is love
Can the child within my heart rise above
Can I sail thru the changing ocean tides
Can I handle the seasons of my life"

off and racing in the emotional stakes

Now coming around the final stretch here comes the chasers, my mind, my body, my soul but my heart stays in the lead.

landslide

I've been afraid of changing because I built my life around you

- stevie nicks x

weakness

You're just like all the rest and that's what sucks the most.

you

I love the way I see you
Even though your not in the room.

I love your passion
Even if its out of tune.

I love the way you listened
To everything I've said.

I love the way your alive
Even though your dead.

-ian curtis

Tomorrow!

My brother from another mother comes home and I witness fleetwood mac performing in front of my very eyes finally.Tomorrow will be a great day!

knocked out

Ahh the beautiful people you meet in hospital. It's ironic how the most ill or injured are also so nice

i think we have an emergency

I've seen love die way to many times when it deserves to be alive x

I dread the night

I want to be anyone in the world but me, trapped in the body of a man defeated, I am ashamed of mistakes repeated.

summer reign

I hate this time of the year. The ever reminder of loneliness wrapped in the pressure of trying to be festive. Thought you'd be around.

miss you x

knock knock

"I never felt open in any way. I would never impulsively ring people and assume that they’d want to see me, or just go ‘round. I always had to sit down and think very hard before I knocked on anybody’s door. And consequently, I never really knocked." - Morrissey.

irony in closure

"All i ever was to you, was a hand to hold and fun. All you ever were to me was the world. Closure never felt so right."

made me smile

Will you keep out all the sadness?

Happiness isn't always the best way to be happy.

I hope you're listening

God show me the way because the Devil's trying to break me down.

The only thing that I pray is that my feet don't fail me now.

I don't think there is nothing I can do now to right my wrongs.

I want to talk to God but I'm afraid because we havn't spoke in so long.

The writer of our movie

It's like we've been reading this script, who's the director of this movie? He's doing a good job. It's like all the pieces could fit if only we turned them all around to see us, to see us?

Let me paint a scene for you nothing more nothing less than my favouritre dreams come true
It can't be real what we feel its like it's all been written.
The camera sitting in our eyes and this is how I see it. x

i let go

Sorry but you're just too beautiful and my chest can no longer take the pounding x

matters of the heart, mind and soul

The search for a god is meaningless if everyone dies alone,
What happened to intelligence is this over pregnant world?

I should know better but I'll always hate, make life a struggle, I'm better this way
If I live fast, but die young and insane, would I live forever an idol, a saint?

Does it feel better knowing forever was the devil himself lurking in disguise
His heartfelt confession did he ever mention was an ace up his sleeve of lies

Love is a struggle, faith will sedate, god is a vampire and I am the stake
Like longing for sweetness in a sour taste, you can't play the rebel in act of grace.

in light of death

(Something written quite some time ago)

Fucked up beyond repair I've got a web of memories
Tangled and easy to tear, torn and broken
Head up look to the sky, the moonlight glowing
The stars shine from your eyes, I know I'll see you on the otherside

baaaah fucking baaaah

People like you will never understand that the true price of beauty is in the untimely balance of our hearts.I don't blame you for not understanding instead almost empathise.

heaven as we know it

Fuck the new romantics, it's only rockn'roll.
This is our religion for heaven we'll never know!

x

her...

god would be soo stoked

xo

The pen is mightier than the sword

The Shack

“Who wants to worship a God who can be fully comprehended, eh? Not much mystery in that”

anger with reason

In the spaces in our teeth lie the weapons of our youth, tongues dancing behind teeth, joining throats to scream the truth!!!

Life is a clock

What's that, you've got an answer for time?

tick tock tick tock tick tock think of yourself

It's not a sensible failure .

I love turbulance

An ideal existence, discovering a book perfectly written

Minds go: this cycle must continue
Legs are chained to the pedals
Elastic has to give at some point
Expand, contract, decrease contact
When the smallest things trigger grave danger, grave digger
This presets a lie

Will insides decide to grow up and not give in?

riots at the big top

Shits going to get fucked up at luna park lad. Can't fucking wait!

still waiting

Today is a big day for me. As I sit here surrounded by green bags full of cds, books and dvds, boxes and bags full of clothes and packed up furniture and beds I smile as I look to the future. I'm shopping today for new household items, furniture and other fun things I seem to do whenever I move. Will I be content this time though. A house to finally call a home, somewhere I'll look forward to coming back to after each days adventures.

Today I woke up realising it's time to shop for other things too. My head is so strong right now but my heart still awakes so heavy every morning. It's an exciting time as I have a new home, a new band, new places I am off to adventure and tour, new venues to destroy as I play my heart out, shit I even have a new phone to play with, but why is there still a void ever so empty, ever so lonely? Is it love I still crave? Is it happiness? Is it more achievement and success?

The last couple of months have really opened my eyes as to who will truly remain in my life through thick and thin coming into the new year. It kills me to think of those I know won't be around or ones I've lost, but I really should look onto the future and finding and meeting more beautiful people to sweep my head, heart and therefore soul away. Going back home, Melbourne,Asia and London are all on the near futures cards so surely joy awaits me.

I once wrote, is craving substance worth feeling alone? I guess If I just enjoyed what I had I would be happier although quite bored. I love the challenge, the chase, the adventure and that ever deepening hole I find myself in while on the search for substance. A hole now that seems far too hard to climb myself out of.

I think back to lifes hardships and disappointments this year and I end it all with a smile knowing I'm so much fucking stronger and better for it. Nothing can stop me now, I will keep dancing my way through this life with no regrets and second guessing. Wanting, having, missing, loving and hurting will always be that devil on my shoulder though I've battled demons before, I will let my pen be mightier than my sword.

Everything is in it's right place. I bid farewell to a year of turbulance x